You and I

You shower me with praises everyday
You try to make me happy in every way

You love it when I say I'm thinking of you
You smile to yourself when I toss a question at you

You wonder what to do when we go on a date
Your eyes well up when I drop you off at the gate

I look forward to spending time with you
I enjoy the process of getting to know you

You analyze my expressions at every chance
You love it when I give you that sideways glance

You follow my every move with your eyes
You want me to be naughty and not just nice

You often make me want to hold you tight in my arms
Your touch lingers on in my mind as do your charms

I love having you on my mind all day
I love the way you love me in every way

If only

If only I could understand solitude
Instead of feeling lonely

If only I could read those romances
Without wanting them so badly

If only I didn't ask Why
When one of them ended

If only you hadn't responded
Attempting to explain

If only we didn't seek in each other
Those romances we read

If only I would listen
To the nagging in my head

If only I didn't fall so easily
For all the things you said

If only I had put it all together
Up there in my head

If only I didn't hand out my heart
As easily as in the past

If only I could realize sooner
The lies and the deceit

If only I could believe I was
Being taken for a ride

If only you were the truth
Not the fallacy I faced

If only those dreams remained
Intact as they were

If only the innocence were not
Betrayed over and over

If only you remained the friend
I thought you were

If only I can rekindle the hope
You doused when you left

If only I can learn to trust
All over again

If only I could uncork that
Which now lies sealed

If only I could ever feel
My wounds being healed

If only I could give again
As I gave to you

Pure, unquestioning, pristine, and true

A piceless possession

I envy your friends
They get to be with you

Amongst them I pity those
That remain ignorant of your value

Wookies, Inc.

A friend, a partner, a symbiotic being

He was, at once, a thousand different things

It all began over the internet

Which was his playground and his bait

His words were music to our ears

He appeared wise beyond his years

We'd hang on to every word he'd say

As he made passionate promises each day

His ideas seemed like twins of ours

In his thoughts, we whiled away the hours

Our hearts were branded by his indelible marks

His intimate expressions would always generate sparks

Eventually, the sparks turned into a wildfire

Who knew he'd turn out to be a pathological liar

Even through the heartbreak and pain he inflicted

We refused to believe that he really could be wicked

As we wandered, heartbroken and alone

Across the distance, like beacons we shone

With our shared pain and words to console

We grew into a little sisterhood of the soul

And even though we fell prey to his deception

We found an excuse to wish him redemption

For, however badly we suffered at his hands

He linked us together, and above all it stands

Dedicated, obviously, to my dear sphinx:

The illusion of a wookie lost

And a true one found

Finding her peace, apiece

I wonder how such small things
Could affect her so greatly

A simple, heart-felt talk
With a dear, lost friend

Drained out from her system
All the pent-up tension

Things they discussed were
Not appealing, to say the least

But they bridged the gap
That had left her so harried

All the while wondering where
The other part of her soul had been

All those months of pain
And loneliness

Melted away in minutes
Of soft-spoken concern

Poured out to the one
Who had pained her so

But she knew her concerns
Were well appreciated

And the acknowledgment
Helped her calm down

And so she floats in ignorant bliss
Having touched base with her only hope

Apr 9, 2008--another space

Afterglow

She's been floating
Since this morning

In a world of hers
Unknown to others

Sad at first
Curious next

And then it happened
For which she pined

The one she awaited most
Drifted by and paid a visit

The conversation was
Intimate as always

That sent her reeling
With its strong feeling

She went about the rest of her day
Partly pleased, partly in dismay

But she rejoiced
In the gift she had

As she reveled in the glow
Of her post-love stupor

April 8, 2008--another space

Quassi-phantom limb

The soul mate continues to exist
But the connection is lost

The friends and their lives go on
But the friendship doesn't

The object is still there
But the desire isn't

The memories linger on
But the future is aborted

The possibilities will remain
But reality has conquered

The pain in the heart persists
But the disease is cured

Often I will be reminded
Of what might-have-been

The delusional sensations
Of my phantom limb

Our first year together

I won't say it's been a perfect journey, for it wasn't really one
But inspite of everything, I dare say, I had a lot of fun

We made a lot of pit stops, we had a lot of fights
We also had our moments, of angst and of pride

Sometimes we were mature, at other times we were not
But, however we went about, we did achieve a lot

It's been a bumpy ride so far, but boring it was not
Incredibly stupid we might be, but we're a fun lot

We often hit each other and broke our little hearts
Then glued together the pieces that had fallen apart

We don't profess to stick together in joy and in strife
But we do seem to savour this roller coaster called life

That thing you do

You whisper sweet wishes every morning into my ears
You offer your shoulder to wipe away my tears

You brighten up my day with a smile or a hug
You go out of your way to make me feel smug

You treat me like a queen and pamper me silly
You caress me with your touch, soft as a lily

You walk beside me or even carry me in your arms
You chase away my blues and cheer me with your charms

It's your presence around me that makes life worth living
I wonder if I could return even half of what you're giving

Creative utilization of negative energy :)

Sometimes things really piss me off
And then I can't do anything but scoff

Usually it's something very silly
That makes me fume like a red hot chilly

Then I need to run away into a shelter
Just to save others around me from my temper

Not that it matters to most people
But at times it makes me feel a bit feeble

How could I let such trivia trouble me
When I always want myself to be hassle-free

When you walked into my life

The past few months have left me feeling like a river run dry
Words would not pour forth, as before
From that eternal source of life and joy

I kept pondering over the reason
But could not come to a conclusion

Then, I gave up searching
And just let myself be

Just as we, on earth, have seasons
The mind also has "dry spells," I reasoned

Change is the only constant--it's so true
I couldn't agree more

For, soon enough, something around me would change
Someone was to enter my life, and get very close

And that someone is so disarming
I had to lay bare everything for him

So he could reach deep enough
To touch the core of my existence

His touch created gentle ripples in me
That helped my feelings to resurface

The river that had seemed to dry up
Was actually a brook caught under the frost

The warmth this person exudes
Is melting the frozen surface

The brook itself is aspiring to be freed
So it could bathe this person in its glory

He knows this very well, but opts not to speak of it
And behind his simple appearance, I can see an aura of perfection

Faith

When you're too happy for words
And the ones closest to you don't care
What do you do
When they just don't want to look from your point of view
For you it's jubilation time
While they linger around in doubts
Doubts about your capability, your success
They'd ask for proof
And show no excitement about your achievement
They neither appreciate whole-heartedly
Nor share their concern

They allow you to go on with your activities
As if nothing happened
So you keep walking with a heavy heart
And just when you are about to reap the benefits of your hard work
They appear out of nowhere
Only to tie your feet with ropes
Whose control lies in their minds

It is then that you go through a trauma
For you know you love them
And yet you can't sacrifice the possibilities
You know they don't mean harm
They try to play it safe
But end up asking you to put your future at stake

When you're brimming with self-confidence
And they command you to settle for mediocrity
How do you react to such atrocity

It is at this moment that your faith is tested
You have an option to be calm
And look up to the One who plans it all
Smile at Him, and He is bound to melt
The ropes will be loosened, the pressures reduced
You'll be let go, and may walk on to a certain distance

As your dear ones see you take control
As they see you win your battles
They will themselves cut the ropes
And they will draw closer
Not to oppose, not to hold you back
But to support you in every venture
For by now, they will have realized
Your true potential and your strength of character