Our first year together

I won't say it's been a perfect journey, for it wasn't really one
But inspite of everything, I dare say, I had a lot of fun

We made a lot of pit stops, we had a lot of fights
We also had our moments, of angst and of pride

Sometimes we were mature, at other times we were not
But, however we went about, we did achieve a lot

It's been a bumpy ride so far, but boring it was not
Incredibly stupid we might be, but we're a fun lot

We often hit each other and broke our little hearts
Then glued together the pieces that had fallen apart

We don't profess to stick together in joy and in strife
But we do seem to savour this roller coaster called life

The mind churns

The mind churns out
solitary sentiments
from a pool of thoughts

Saddened, silly, swamped
without a doubt
disgusting

There are remnants
of once
beautiful ones

That were
ruthlessly ignored
and left to decay

They glisten now
beneath the surface
their colors darkening

But their fragrance
still evokes
the longing

To pen them on paper
and set them free
of the drench

The stink
of procrastination
looms large

All over
the swamp
of ignored thoughts

But the sweet smells
of the good ones
intermingle

And create an aura
of mixed feelings
and drudgery

A sad state

The soul brimming with ideas and thoughts
I want to share with someone
The mind numb with the clutter of daily chores
That never seem to end

While I'm seeking for something
To whisk me away from this drudgery
There's someone who expects inspiration
From this bored, world-weary lass

Yet, I tried to milk the soul
To find a drop of guidance
All that resulted was a further loss
Of energies and the sense of purpose

So smothered the poor thing lies
Beneath the pile of undertakings
For all I know it might be screaming
Under the struggle-induced deafness

These words are a desperate effort
To reach that inner, divine voice
They're my only recourse and refuge
And my connection to sanity

Grace

I sit here in silence tonight
Rummaging through a pile of feelings
Which one do I pick
To express in words
And present to myself

As I lay down on my warm bed
Wanting nothing more but a cool sheet
A swarm of thoughts arose
As it always does
To penetrate my sleep

My sweetheart rushed to help
Driving them away and calming me down
Then, as he turned away
To welcome his own peace
A thought shone from within

More an impulse than a thought
It was as strong and brilliant as they come
I knew there was no withholding this
So I surrendered to its power
Lest it burn down my night

So, I sit here in silence tonight
A slave to that impulse and the Master who controls it all
What I want to do this moment
Is more a necessity than a wish
It's and obligation to the Is

As I grew conscious
About the power of the Will
I have been utilizing
The same for every wish
Knowingly or otherwise

As the months passed by
And I worked towards what I wished
I saw each one of them
Being morphed from a dream
Into good, solid reality

Then came the elation
A natural successor to success
Along with a sensation
That was more grounded
Like an anchor of the soul

It was time to return
The favors bestowed upon me
To give back to the Is
The love and attention
That I so fiercely sought

To talk to the Universe
To say that I was in cognizance
Of the demands
That had been fulfilled
And prayers answered

To say my grace
At least once in a while
If not as often
Or with as much vigor
As may be necessary

And so, I sit here in silence tonight
Choosing to express that one important feeling
Presenting to the Is in myself
In return for the fruits
My gratitude, my humility

Longings - I

I look out the window
And see a lone tree
It rests atop a knoll
Draped in herbage

For a moment this scene
Is crystal clear
Then slowly it blurs
Behind a sheet of rain

I'm mesmerized
By this view divine
Yet I can't afford
The bliss of being there

Chained as I am
To the workplace cubicle
Under nobody's orders
But my own obligation

It's funny how we humans
Take a detour
To endless hours at work
So we can play during the rest

We slog for a secure dwelling
But yearn for adventure
We spend hours in chaotic commutes
And crave for a moment of peace

But that's the way of the world as I see it
Simple units bound into complex structures
That disintegrate into the parts
To be revived yet again

Difficult to express

Groping for thoughts
Where there exist none
Squeezing undiscovered feelings
Into words

Envisioning scenes
While staring into space
Attempting to bind fiction
Into form

Criticizing the masses
When the mirror shows your worth
Trying to silence
The warnings of your soul

Searching for answers
To questions that befuddle you
Stringing those pearls
Of wisdom unknown

On the way back to myself

Sweet slumber, dreams tugging at your heart
You reach out and almost get hold of them
Then, a blank moment, and they're gone

Normally you'd linger on, hoping for an action replay
A replay where you can grab the elusive ending
Or change the dream somehow

All you achieve is another hallucination
Unrelated, unwanted, distressing perhaps
Or the same story with the same abrupt non-ending

Sometimes you succeed in breaking away
From the temptation that cuffs you to your bed
And brace yourself to follow your own plans

Your moves are swift and deliberate
As if you'd never laid down for the night
The battle seems a mundane chore

High on determination, you leave the house
To tread on tranquil paths
Of the world and your mind alike

This is your gift to yourself
The warmth of the sunshine
The coolness of the forest breeze

And every such gift deserves gratitude in return
For you've slain your demons
And worshiped your angels

Haven't you been missing the fun, foolish lass
For, whenever you do that, you cross my path
And it's been so long, girl, I'm glad you're back

Rhyming in Vain

A raindrop here and a tear drop there
One brings hope, the other takes it away
A tear drop here and a raindrop there
One flows of joy, the other washes it away

A mansion here and a tiny hut there
One keeps you warm, the other freezes away
A tiny hut here and a mansion there
One sleeps soundly, the other worries away

A dark cloud here, and a rainbow there
One makes it gloomy, the other cheers a day
A rainbow here and a dark cloud there
One's unreachable, the other gets you some day

A punch here and a smile there
One knocks you out, the other makes your day
A smile here and a punch there
As you can see, I've had a really bad day!!

Nightly Rhymes

Another night when sleep evades her
Another night when peace betrays her

A few minutes ago she would've drifted into slumber
A few minutes later, though, resting is a task of labour

She may be exhausted one night, excited the other
But sleep visits rarely, just like a perfect weather

The trouble is causes her cannot be explained
She's lucky to have her sanity retained

Brilliant ideas zoom about like fire-flies
But she can't capture them from where she lies

Repentance is then all that remains
For all those goals she never attains

Yet, she's hopeful of every single moment
For the one precious gift that it might present

The power to set her talents in motion
Helping her achieve everyday salvation

Till then, her desires will silently scream
As she drifts through every meaningless dream

Till then, the bed is a slab of burning coal
As, once again, she strangles the voices of her soul