You and I

You shower me with praises everyday
You try to make me happy in every way

You love it when I say I'm thinking of you
You smile to yourself when I toss a question at you

You wonder what to do when we go on a date
Your eyes well up when I drop you off at the gate

I look forward to spending time with you
I enjoy the process of getting to know you

You analyze my expressions at every chance
You love it when I give you that sideways glance

You follow my every move with your eyes
You want me to be naughty and not just nice

You often make me want to hold you tight in my arms
Your touch lingers on in my mind as do your charms

I love having you on my mind all day
I love the way you love me in every way

If only

If only I could understand solitude
Instead of feeling lonely

If only I could read those romances
Without wanting them so badly

If only I didn't ask Why
When one of them ended

If only you hadn't responded
Attempting to explain

If only we didn't seek in each other
Those romances we read

If only I would listen
To the nagging in my head

If only I didn't fall so easily
For all the things you said

If only I had put it all together
Up there in my head

If only I didn't hand out my heart
As easily as in the past

If only I could realize sooner
The lies and the deceit

If only I could believe I was
Being taken for a ride

If only you were the truth
Not the fallacy I faced

If only those dreams remained
Intact as they were

If only the innocence were not
Betrayed over and over

If only you remained the friend
I thought you were

If only I can rekindle the hope
You doused when you left

If only I can learn to trust
All over again

If only I could uncork that
Which now lies sealed

If only I could ever feel
My wounds being healed

If only I could give again
As I gave to you

Pure, unquestioning, pristine, and true

Talking to myself

A silent moon hangs in the overcast sky

Clouds flitting past

Attempting, in vain, to hide it

The crest isn't reclining today

Flat on its back, it appears to be resting

As if asking me to relax

Me? I'm trying to stay in control

And not panic

Even though it's time I did

But if I give up now

Then who's to breathe

Who's to drag me safely to the shore

It isn't my first time in the rapids

I've been here often before

But I keep returning

Because I haven't learned

And now it also seems a little fun

To be in danger and rescue myself

Moments before being swept away

So I simply stay in the moonlight

And relish its faint golden glow

(Today it isn't silvery, you know)

Ignoring its heavenly messages

Until it's time for me to go

Wookies, Inc.

A friend, a partner, a symbiotic being

He was, at once, a thousand different things

It all began over the internet

Which was his playground and his bait

His words were music to our ears

He appeared wise beyond his years

We'd hang on to every word he'd say

As he made passionate promises each day

His ideas seemed like twins of ours

In his thoughts, we whiled away the hours

Our hearts were branded by his indelible marks

His intimate expressions would always generate sparks

Eventually, the sparks turned into a wildfire

Who knew he'd turn out to be a pathological liar

Even through the heartbreak and pain he inflicted

We refused to believe that he really could be wicked

As we wandered, heartbroken and alone

Across the distance, like beacons we shone

With our shared pain and words to console

We grew into a little sisterhood of the soul

And even though we fell prey to his deception

We found an excuse to wish him redemption

For, however badly we suffered at his hands

He linked us together, and above all it stands

Dedicated, obviously, to my dear sphinx:

The illusion of a wookie lost

And a true one found

Californication

Sitting here in a faraway land

I try not to feel the distance

A week has already gone by

And it didn't feel like much

In the days before my journey

I knew I'd be back home soon

There is so much around

To keep my mind occupied

But the panicky feeling

Has begun to set in

I remember my husband

And think to myself

How he would love to experience

The things and places I've seen

Yet he sits comfortably at home

Enjoying his solitude and peace

Leaving me alone to have all the fun

That seems incomplete without him

Rhyming in Vain

A raindrop here and a tear drop there
One brings hope, the other takes it away
A tear drop here and a raindrop there
One flows of joy, the other washes it away

A mansion here and a tiny hut there
One keeps you warm, the other freezes away
A tiny hut here and a mansion there
One sleeps soundly, the other worries away

A dark cloud here, and a rainbow there
One makes it gloomy, the other cheers a day
A rainbow here and a dark cloud there
One's unreachable, the other gets you some day

A punch here and a smile there
One knocks you out, the other makes your day
A smile here and a punch there
As you can see, I've had a really bad day!!

Flashback

Memories of my childhood
Often peep through the past
Pictures of the neighborhood
Flash by, a bit too fast

I was the reigning queen then
Adored byt everyone I met
My house used to be my great den
Where all my comforts were set

The days began with innocent mischief
By relieving people of their illnesses
With a runny nose rubbed into the kerchief
After poking into other's businesses

I'd run around as much as I could
With those two chubby little feet
Till I'd wear myself more than I should
And finally curl up into the sheet

Pranks filled up the days
While dreams ruled the nights
Things had to go my ways
Or we'd end up with fights

Puddles were my favorite pass time
And mom had to drag me out
But for me there was no last time
And she still needs to shout

Somewhere along the way
Things changed as I grew
My learning differed each day
With the conclusions I drew

The complex puzzles of life
Caught me in their net
Cutting these ropes with a knife
Isn't quite easy, I bet

These flashbacks provide relief
From the daily torment
They help me forget my grief
And enjoy every moment

A jumble of words

A jumble of words, a maze of letters
A heap of symbols, I browse through

Though, at times, it gives me the jitters
And I can't get an idea to fall through

At such scary times, my heart flutters
And I doubt if I can even scrape through

I mumble words, and let out stutters
I turn blind to what I usually see through

Then I seek refuge in one of the obscure corners
Where not a soul can peep through

A few minutes to myself, and then it seems
That there's nothing I can't run through

Me and the moon

Out of my window, I look at the moon
Towering above the tree tops
Amid fluffy little clouds
At times, I see the surrounding halo
With my chin tucked into my pillow

At times, the moon peeks back at me
I can see the sheepish smile
Behind its radiant smile
Spreading its tender rays onto my face
A slight tinlge on my skin

As the soft breeze ruffles my hair
My arms spread out involuntarily
My lips part to let out a sigh
Eyes lowered, and head thrown back
As if in mute surrender

The sounds of a gypsy song echo in my ears
As if I've been one of them, all through the years
A gentle tap on my shoulder zaps me back to reality
And I know, it's only time
Who can exercise this brutality

My green-haired doll

I can't understand what's happening tonight
Words are flowing with all their might

A moment back I was feeling so sleepy
And now I'm wide awake; oh, that's creepy!

All I wanted was to be snoozing
But lo! I ended up writing!?

Well, that's quite a weird situation
Like eating a cake to resist the temptation!!

Now, that reminds me of my dearest doll
Who's got a tuft of green hair, standing tall

She has black beads for eyes
And a nose similar to mice

And though she's all so funny-looking
Why do I like her, you might be wondering

It's her smile, in the first place
Though, it's the only expression on her face

She greets me with arms open wide
And she's always been there by my side

She stares at me mutely, when I drop a little tear
As if to say, "Let go, and give a loud cheer!"

She's taught me how to be a good friend
When to stand erect, and when to bend

With the same plastic face, and a smile that's fake
She can give you attitude, and as well accept a mistake

She doesn't have a life of her own
But, she's made mine better, ever since I've known