If only I could understand solitude
Instead of feeling lonely
If only I could read those romances
Without wanting them so badly
If only I didn't ask Why
When one of them ended
If only you hadn't responded
Attempting to explain
If only we didn't seek in each other
Those romances we read
If only I would listen
To the nagging in my head
If only I didn't fall so easily
For all the things you said
If only I had put it all together
Up there in my head
If only I didn't hand out my heart
As easily as in the past
If only I could realize sooner
The lies and the deceit
If only I could believe I was
Being taken for a ride
If only you were the truth
Not the fallacy I faced
If only those dreams remained
Intact as they were
If only the innocence were not
Betrayed over and over
If only you remained the friend
I thought you were
If only I can rekindle the hope
You doused when you left
If only I can learn to trust
All over again
If only I could uncork that
Which now lies sealed
If only I could ever feel
My wounds being healed
If only I could give again
As I gave to you
Pure, unquestioning, pristine, and true
